Cracking Open to let in More Light

Something got cracked open for me in November. Actually, something cracked open in me last May, when I started chanting the Hanuman Chalisa every morning at 7 AM with Rose Ma (pacemrosa@aol.com) and others on zoom. I didn’t realize I needed the Hanuman Chalisa in my life. I had loved listening to David Newman‘s recording of […]

The Irrational Grip of Jealousy

I suffer from jealousy on an irregular basis. It always astonishes me when I find myself in its grips. I don’t go seeking situations to be jealous of, I just get activated into jealousy by the most random events. When I speak of jealousy, I’m not speaking of jealousy between men and women or between […]

Losing October

toad lily flowers

I’ve been losing myself every October for decades and as a result, I lose the entire month of October. I make no forward movement, I accomplish very little and I wallow in my depression and stuckness. Since 1967, October has been a difficult month for me. It took me decades to realize why I got […]